Another, Less Fun, Ultrasound Update

So the hospital sent over the ultrasound report today, and I got a phone call. Not good.

Apparently, there are "multiple aneuploidy markers" including "fetal pyelectasis" and an "echogenic focus on the fetal heart." Which translates to, soft markers for chromosomal abnormalities, including kidney enlargement and some sort of spot on the heart. I am really trying not to freak out. If it was just the kidneys, or just the heart, I think I'd be fine with everything, but the fact that it's both is a little worrying and now I am waiting for the referral to a medical genetics counsellor.

I am kind of surprised nothing was said at the actual ultrasound - I assumed they would. Now I feel like a dolt for making a huge announcement to my family about having a girl. I mean, I still am having a girl, but well, you know. I might have saved that news for a couple of weeks from now when I have some additional reassurance (I hope.)

I didn't do the genetic blood testing for this very reason - did not want to worry myself over something I have no control over. A 13-week nuchal ultrasound is not offered here to women under 40, so that was not an option. But now I have a requisition to go do some bloodwork tomorrow, which I am sort of torn about. Will it change anything? Basically, would it help me worry less? If result come back abnormal, would we do an amnio? I'm not sure we would at this point anyway. But I'm hoping it will be reassuring.

On the other hand, if there are abnormalities, that may change my care, and my plans for a home birth, so I guess more information is always better.

D was awesome. He called me and said "Our little girl is still our little girl. We won't love her any less." Which puts things in perspective. I needed to hear that. I do genuinely believe in a right to choose, and if I found out my child has Trisomy-18 or something that is always fatal, I would definitely consider termination. I'm not sure that's the route I'd go, but I'd talk it over. But unless I were 100% certain it was something like that, I don't think I'd do anything that would put a potentially healthy, or partly healthy baby at risk. Anyway I'm not going to think about that now as that is about 50 million miles away from where we are now. Trying to think positive and not about highly unlikely scenarios. It still could very possibly mean nothing at all, and I'm trying to focus my energy on that thought.