Feelings
I feel like I should just post something since I haven't posted anything in 10 days or so, but I really don't have much to say.
I'm desperately in need of vacation. I haven't taken any real time off in months and I'm feeling a little burnt out. I'm getting to that stage where I'm worrying about work in the middle of the night, and that's not good.
D is reading a book about psychology, and according to the book, people are very visual. When they think about the future, they can picture things - a new house, a beach vacation, a child. But it's very hard for them to imagine a different feeling, to foresee that they might be happier, or sadder, or calmer, even though they're in the same situation. This is part of why depression is so hard to get out of - it's so impossible to imagine feeling better.
And although I'm not depressed, I am restless. I have no trouble imagining different scenarios - cuddling a new baby on another mat leave, puttering in a renovated kitchen overlooking a lusher garden, taking a long beach vacation, opening a bed and breakfast a different city. But it's hard to imagine maybe just being in the same situation but loving it more, or feeling better about it, even though I find myself liking my job more all the time. Why is that? Am I just unimaginative?
I'm desperately in need of vacation. I haven't taken any real time off in months and I'm feeling a little burnt out. I'm getting to that stage where I'm worrying about work in the middle of the night, and that's not good.
D is reading a book about psychology, and according to the book, people are very visual. When they think about the future, they can picture things - a new house, a beach vacation, a child. But it's very hard for them to imagine a different feeling, to foresee that they might be happier, or sadder, or calmer, even though they're in the same situation. This is part of why depression is so hard to get out of - it's so impossible to imagine feeling better.
And although I'm not depressed, I am restless. I have no trouble imagining different scenarios - cuddling a new baby on another mat leave, puttering in a renovated kitchen overlooking a lusher garden, taking a long beach vacation, opening a bed and breakfast a different city. But it's hard to imagine maybe just being in the same situation but loving it more, or feeling better about it, even though I find myself liking my job more all the time. Why is that? Am I just unimaginative?
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posted by grass @ 9:12 PM
2 Comments:
At 9:33 AM ,
Good Timing said...
I hope you get to go on a vacation soon!!
At 11:11 AM ,
Kaitlyn said...
I think we're all like that. It's easier to imagine a change of events fixing things instead of the change coming from within ourselves. It's like when you're hungry, you always cook too much food, you can't imagine NOT being hungry...
Good luck though, and take some time off this summer :)
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