Overtime
You know what I've come to realise? I really don't mind putting in a couple of hours of work after LM goes down for bed. Realistically, I'd otherwise be surfing the 'net or watching TV, so I don't feel like I missing out on living. I'm not a productive baker, or seamstress at 9 p.m. but I can crank out a memo.
I don't like working during naptime though - I need that downtime to either put my feet up myself or to do something productive, like garden.
And I really, really, really hate going into the office on the weekend. Seeing LM's puzzled face after our weekend morning routine (lazing in bed, some books and playing, pancakes for breakfast) as I wave bye-bye - it's the worst feeling in the world. I thought about it all day and was racked with guilt, and annoyance at being away. D said that LM had the best day ever, didn't ask for me at all, and was in a terrific mood. Not sure that made me feel any better, honestly. I can be away from him 5 days a week, no problem. But make it six and it really starts to hurt.
I'm pretty lucky as lawyers go as I don't have to do that very often. But even once feels like too much.
posted by grass @ 11:04 PM
2 Comments:
At 8:09 PM ,
Good Timing said...
That is too bad that you had to work on the weekend. :( At least it doesn't happen all too often. At least LM had a good day and you got to spend some time with him.
(linds)
p.s. This is my new home! :)
At 8:31 AM ,
LL said...
I can't believe I didn't comment on this because I definitely meant to. I totally understand what you mean. I also don't mind working at night (don't love it, but don't mind it), I also need naptime to just chill and do mindless things when I'm home with him all day, and I HATE actually going in to the office on weekends. I've written about this before, but I'm not conflicted over my working-mother status; however, I've found there's very firm limits on that. I miss a bedtime and suddenly I'm resenting and rethinking my career- crazy how fast it flips.
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