I Am Not Dealing With This Very Well
I've had a lot of death in my life - one parent, three grandparents (the fourth died before I was born), 2 childhood friends, a pet, a miscarriage (not sure if that really counts, but hey.)
But still, I have no idea what to say. I am not coping well with the shaky handwriting on the card, the feebleness, the realisation that this may the last birthday that she'll be here, the last holiday...
I am irritated that my mother is going out of town for three weeks. I think it's a monumentally bad idea. But on the other hand if she stays, it will upset my aunt because she will know it's because we think she doesn't have much time. Crap, this stuff is so hard. But I guess I should just suck it up, because right now it's not really about me.
But still, I have no idea what to say. I am not coping well with the shaky handwriting on the card, the feebleness, the realisation that this may the last birthday that she'll be here, the last holiday...
I am irritated that my mother is going out of town for three weeks. I think it's a monumentally bad idea. But on the other hand if she stays, it will upset my aunt because she will know it's because we think she doesn't have much time. Crap, this stuff is so hard. But I guess I should just suck it up, because right now it's not really about me.
posted by grass @ 7:32 PM
2 Comments:
At 9:08 AM ,
linds said...
I am sorry to hear that things are so rough for you. :( I think dealing with death is not easy for anyone, so don't feel you are abnormal or anything. And the miscarriage definitely counts as a loss! You have had a lot of difficult times and I pray you can find some peace and solace with your aunt. Thinking of you!!
At 10:41 AM ,
kaitlyn said...
I'm never quite sure what to say at times like these. I guess your mom is doing what she feels is right, maybe it would upset your aunt more if she stayed and she knows that? Anyway, I'm thinking about you.
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