Out of the Fog

It's funny, I feel like I'm emerging from the haze of motherhood a little these days. Something about it has gotten easier. And the other day, I woke up and wondered: "Hey, whatever happened on that litigation matter I was working on?" I remember the partner I was doing the work for saying that when she had her kid, she stopped caring completely about work for a little while, didn't follow what happened on any of her cases. I couldn't imagine it at the time, but it obviously happened to me since that case did not even cross my mind for four months, despite having worked on it for two summers. I did a search and it doesn't look like the decision has come down yet.

Then the other day I was out for an afternoon, and I didn't spend half the time thinking about him. In fact, he barely even crossed my mind. It was kind of freeing, not because I don't love him, and love spending loads of time with him, but it felt like I was getting a bit of myself back, a part of me that I didn't even realise had been on hiatus. I was just me, not mummy. And it felt kind of nice. And it felt just as nice to come home to a big old toothless grin.