Baby Pants

Well, I've finished my last exam. It went quite badly. I just wasn't familiar enough with the material. Law school exams are all about spotting issues - they provide a hypothetical situation and you can advise your "client" on the law. But there were a few major things I missed - not because I wouldn't have known the law on them if asked, but because I wasn't familiar enough to realise what the question was. Oh well, I guess that's what happens when you do all your reading in two days.

In my defence, I don't the exam was entirely fair since it was a complete race against the clock. Yes, law is stressful, but you're never going to be asked to solve five complex problems involving completely different actors in two and a half hours. Those exams test a particular skill that isn't that relevant to law. Thinking fast and coherently is important. Thinking at the speed of light and identifying every possible legal issue in a very short period of time is not. I have no problem with the format of the exam, and if I'd had three hours, I could have done quite well.

Part of my problem was that I was totally preoccupied with baby yesterday. I had my midwife appointment - for some reason I get really anxious beforehand because the appointment forces me to actually turn my mind to things that could go wrong... I'm anxious about hearing the heartbeat and anxious about the weird things that are happening that I usually just don't bother worrying about.

I did hear the heartbeat, very easily, and it was lovely. But then I asked about the fact that I've been having these weird sort of pains in my cervix and while she said it was probably normal, she'd ask the ultrasound to check my cervical length anyway. (I had one just now!) I'm terrified of preterm labour - as my sister-in-law went through it and lost her twins. It seems particularly scary at this crucial time when the baby is so much more real to me, but still unviable outside the womb.

Also, I've been having what I think are Braxton-Hicks as my stomach gets really hard sometimes, and while everyone seems to say that's normal, it would be a lot more reassuring just not to have them yet.

So I came home and stewed about those things and then realised that I'd forgotten to tell her that when I did my urine test there were some nitrates in it. I got home and Googled it, and found it can mean UTI. So then I became convinced that the pains were actually a UTI and I had to go the bathroom nine times in three hours. I called and asked for a urine culture. D ran out and got my cranberry capsules and all seems well and now I realise I was being a bit ridiculous. I am very suggestable.

Anyway, we have our ultrasound Monday, so I can worry until then and then hopefully feel reassured that all is normal.

In an effort to alleviate my anxiety about both baby and my stupid exam, I decided to check out a few baby stores this afternoon. I wanted to get some kind of cute outfit - but I find shopping for baby extremely perplexing. I can't find baby pants anywhere! What do babies wear on their legs? Every thing just seems to be legless onesies - long sleeves or short. I don't really feel like making buying onesies an "event" since you can buy them in 5 packs at Shoppers. I want something it can wear on a walk, or a trip to Grandma's, like a sleeper with feet. But anything with pants or long legs is sized for an enormous baby. Our autumn baby will need pants when it's small. It's all very confusing. They show itty-bitty shoes everywhere, and babies don't even need shoes since they can't walk, but pants are like the holy grail.