Expecting

Well, I didn't go to the Internet meet on Sunday, which I do regret, because Lorie was right and it could have been a hilarious entry. But there will be more, I'm sure, and perhaps I will feel a bit more legit attending the pregnancy get-togethers once I have my very own baby bump.

Instead, D and I hung out with some of our IRL friends, who, being very observant, guessed that I am pregnant! I thought I was so subtle. I did ask a lot of questions about the baby, like: "So what do you do all day?" She was soothing him at the time and said "Sometimes I just do this, you know it will be noon and he'll be fussy and I'll be soothing him and all of sudden it's two." I have to admit, that description wasn't all that satisfying to me... I mean, it looked a little dull. I love the idea of being at home and taking care of baby as I've always been a real homebody, but soothing a crying baby for two hours might cause me to poke a stake in my eye.

We also went househunting... very premature, but we found this three-bedroom condo we kind of love. It's in a newish development being built not far from where we live now. It is in the city proper but they are building a whole neighbourhood from scratch, complete with parks and water features. It could be very scary and Stepford-wife-ish, or it could be very cute and fun.

I am still worried about miscarriage and can't help but peruse the stats daily, but so far all seems well - no spotting, no loss of symptoms. (D has taken to calling me "Double-D" although it's really more like "Barely-B.") We will be having a dating ultrasound a week Tuesday, so that should give some reassurance. But there are so many women on the forums who have good ultrasounds and then have terrible sad stories. I have to stop reading those threads.

My friend offered me "What to Expect When You're Expecting" but I decided to leave it at her place after reading about the potentially life-threatening effects of oral sex and not eating enough broccoli. Every passage seemed to read along the lines of "Well, it probably won't do any harm but best to avoid it in case you KILL YOUR BABY!" My friend and I both decided it was best for me not to take it home. Besides, that book probably contains some proviso about how stressful worrying can be a on a foetus.