i'm back

i'm back after a not-so-brief hiatus. i missed you. there was something kind of refreshing about not writing here for a while. i placed my energy elsewhere. it's not that i intended to stop, but then something happened so i did. i think the risk has passed but i will pick my words more carefully now.

i've decided, partly because i want a fresh start and partly because i'm lazy, that i won't put up what was here before, at least not now.

today i am sore, a dull branch of pain on my right side where my gallbladder has swollen for mysterious reasons. on monday a doctor with a gentle british accent will put a camera down my throat and tell me why. i felt it a few weeks ago, a stitch. and then again this week, only worse. when it got hard to breathe i went to the e.r. they dressed me in a backless gown and told me i had photogenic innards - that i was a pleasure to scan. strangely, it's not the first time i've been told that.